tuesday

I spend last night trying to make my project work.. I made the biggest mistake.. being ignorant.
When i had my group meeting, i know i am hurting one's feeling. But i didn;t really make the effort to call him back. I understand his disappointment and totally will feel the same if he had done the same thing. I thought he was online, so i message him, and he never reply..
Last night was really intense.. I feel like i am way behind and everyone is squeshing me to work hard.. and i DID..
But there is a bigger price i have to pay.. instead of being proud of myself.. i feel guilty..
It makes me think if i make step towards the wrong direction.
nothing is certain for now. and i tried to do my best to make my future works and the best thing that i can do is study harder and challenge myself further more..
I can;t really sleep last night and i had to wake up at 7 and now i am in zach trying to motivate myself to do my project..
Sitting here alone by myself is depressing but it will be much more depressing if i didn;t do it and regret it in the end..
whatever path i took.. there will be ups and downs..
Maybe i took the worse path since the last 6 months but at least it makes me happier and stronger each day.
i never regret it and if it means it is the end of the path. I'll be strong enough to take a step forward and reach another path.