07/16/06 - 14 days more...

Like usual, Sunday... I went to work ... bla bla bla... nothing special
Then did my laundry and I go to sweet Eugene to read finance book.
I went to eat at Pei Wei. The food sucks. I had a kid special honey glazed chicken.
GOSH… it was a chicken fried covered with honey sauce. DOUBLE CALORIES, DOUBLE GUILT and more importantly tasted like CRAP.
I watched a lot of movies on HBO. That was the summary of today’s boring life......

Anyway... I was surfing friendster and checking my oldies friends and cousins site.
OMG........They all changed. They all are pretty and grown up.
I felt like I am the ugly duckling swimming in the ocean....
Lost lost lost and absolutely have no idea where she is heading… She is trying to find a pond, but never find one.
Well… I wish all the best in their life (all my friend, families out there), since the more you grown, the more experience (pain) you will suffer...
Clock ticks, we grow older, and voila... you don't know why you ended up doing what you are doing.
Jobs, school, everything ...they all seem temporary as things change all the time.
What is matter is what you learn out of it.

Some lives all their life trying to get temporary satisfaction
Some lives to work to survive
Some travels around the world and experience new things
Some are obsessed with a too specific thing and ended up getting nowhere
Some got a job somewhere and live their life
Some stay at home and do nothing
Some tries to lives off their dream.
Fortunately, there is no final destination to life.
We have the power to decide the next step.
Not easy but not impossible.

After you turn 20… more precisely after you graduated… is when the real life begins.
Pressure, depression, tears, hardship… those are the half of your bowl of life…
You can never avoid it. Learning how to deal with it is the best thing that one can do. Speaking of which, I always say it but I never actually succeed doing it. I always believe that those things will make you stronger and make you appreciate your life better. Don’t forget there is another half of the bowl... love, joy, friends and many more.

Well… this is actually the first time I am writing something on my blog...
I have a crisis identity. I don’t really know where I belong. Sometimes I don’t really know who I am. Living for several years on different places makes you learn about other culture (and different group of friends). Making you understand how the society works better. My history shapes me the way I am now.

Pray for the ugly duck to find a nearby pond.
God bless….