SUNDAY ...

getting ready to go to work ....
today is a sunny sunday.. cool air breeze...
I lOVE THIS WEATHER.... heheeh :p
c u... gotta go now, i will post more later..

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feb 23  

,.. 

:) feb 23 

umph.... Why does he still look alike? he is a totally different person now.... Umph... 

things are supposed to go this way !!! 

vegas 

:P 

ice cream... minnesota  

when i was fat!!! 

duckkk!!!! i want roast duck!!! 

once upon a time.... 

Chicago :) 

las vegas  

california summer 05 

hahahahah!!!! 

long gone memory... colorado spring 05 

feb 23 06 

23 feb 2006 

my pedicure :) 

I am sleepy....

I am soo full.. I ate tuna salad and strawberry chocolate... Now i am soo sleepy.
Wanted to sleep but i can't... so i decided to write my blog..

I was surfing internet most of the time... I feel tired and need time on my own these days...
just spend time doing nothing at home :)....
Feel like sleeping but i am too full
heheheeh

i stole this pic from http://nanta.koreanpower.net
I can't read any single word...
That is scary... But i got this pic lol :)
My baby is in the middle...

My decision

I have a lot of thinking going on lately. I already decided. I am not gonna write here in details but i am not gonna force it. I am running out of time.
Facts can be hurt but a fact is a fact.
When there is no way, there will be no way.

Pray that i will be strong and there is another light at the end of the road.
You can't go through a very rocky road that you can barely survive.
Take the highway.

i need my friends to support me....
I might get lost somewhere but i will make it

:_)

I am at Zach now, hahah it is 11.04 pm. My life has been like this. I lived in Zach now. I stayed until 4 am on Saturday to figure out the schematic layout for my project. I didn't do anything much today but i am drinking a gallon of coffee now. I think i will be awake all night. I am with Nikita at second floor lab. I feel like i am one of those indians in the lab.. how great!!!!

I need to wake up early in the morning and i need to get my car serviced.
PHEWW.. i think i need to go to bed now but i am under caffeine.. how great!!!!

OK c u latas

The crappy me :) 

HEHEHEH 

Flowers and strawberry dipped chocolate 

VALENTINE DAY 02/14/06

I woke up today and never realised it is a Valentine day. It is just like any other day. I went to school and found out that i have so many things to do.. I had to stay at Zach to do research on the circuit. I went home for a while before work... I thought there would be no valentine this year. hehehe................He dropped by and bought a dozen of flowers and strawberry chocolate :).... I am posting a lot of pics later. I just washed my face and wear my pijamas and took some pics. Look really2 crappy but don;t mind me.. Look at the flowerssss.... hehehe
I love roses... especially the red ones.
They are so beautiful. When you wake up in the morning... your room is filled with the distinct rose smell.. i love it...
The strawberry chocolate is really good. BUT SOMEONE ATE IT A LOT... hehehehe..j/k..
THANKS, I LOVE THEM ....
Today is not a so good day for me, but i am happy..... I feel kinda tired, but when i went home.. i feel happy and calm when i see the flowers... I ate some of the strawberry too.. I promised my self to eat one per day. But i think they should be gone tomorrow morning.. HIKS....
I hope i will get them next year and get excited again. .... (My only pray for now). No high expectation whatsoever,....
I am just tired now.. I worked today and i had fun,. my coworker asking me if i will have a valentine dinner or not after work ..
I told them that i am too tired and need to get my hw done ... maybe i should have done something more special.. I can;t afford it now..
So many things,, so little time...
hahahaha
but i ended up writing my blog... i'll do my hw tomorrow in the morning..

After work, he drop by at chef cao :).........
We met for a minute and had a good night kiss... ^^... and he left....
I dunno if i should be happy or not... everything is just tiring.
I had my valentine dinner at saturday night... but it is okay :)
It is life after all. I had a really good steak :). I considered my self lucky because i can still feel love during this loving day... I need to post this before 12 pm, Otherwise it will no longer valentine day on the record, when i post it :)...

before i went home... after work. there are 2 guys asking me where is the nearest bar. I told them Fox and Hound right across the street and they asked me to join....
I got scared but honored...
at least, someone still wants me to join them drink... I am not so ugly afterall...
I got chocolate from Airin... hahaha... i finished them in 15 mins. I am a crazy chocolate eater...

Posting this quick before 12. it is 11.49 now...
i will post my crappy pic now....
hahahaha
o yea,... happy valentine's everyone
i love you all

pre valentine drama

This is the first time i write 2 blog in the same day.. a lot of things happened today.
I went to work from 12 to 2. I got really tired. Thinking of doing hw, i ended up going to the mall. I wanted to pay my credit card bill (Victoria's Secret) there but i ended up shopping.
I had a lot of thinking going inside my mind while shopping.. BUY OR NO...
hahahah...
I wonder around and try to challenge my self if my own money is gonna be enough for this month or not. I decided to shop since i didn't really spend much these days. I am so busy lately and i didn;t really have time to go shopping. So i figure out, i think i can still afford shopping...
hahahaha
I tried a lot of cloth at Abercrombie but none of them really good. They are about the same and i have had a lot of those kind already (I used to shop a lot last time). So i kinda hold back. I rather spend one on a more expensive but worth it rather than buying a lot of cheaper stuff.
When i walked out of the store. I saw the guy section of the store. I thought valentine is coming. I took some clothes and all of sudden i had headache. They all look the same and about the same. I wasn;t sure which one to get. Those are the new arrivals. They have the grey with white stripes and blue with white stripes. The only difference is the size of the white stripes. I always had headache whenever i see too many choices. Unless if i go to the store where all the cloth are crappy unless one of them. That way i know which one to get, hahahaha, i walked along the store and finally i get to see the sale section. Those are really2 cheap so i simply take one of them with medium size... hahahha... wrong sizee...... It is grey color and i walk to the girl section and grap one grey color t shirt too... so that it will match. Thinking about it, he already have 2 grey color t shirt. I wanted to get other color, but it was too much hazzle. So i paid.

I went home and pay all my bills. Talk with Monica on the phone. She told me that Keagen told her that i flirt with him... HAHAHA... that is the last thing in the world that i would do.
NO 1. I DO NOT flirt
NO 2. I DO NOT flirt with my best friend BF
NO 3. He is not my type
NO 4. I do not have time to flirt
NO 5. I have a bf already

Yoon drop by and i was so happy. He look disappointed because of wrong size. When he fell asleep, I went to the mall and change the size. I got the blue color with the green stripes. They all look the same, The whole store, the new arrival and the sale section .. they all stripes... I wanted to get the chocolate color but i wonder if it will look good on tan skin.
hahahh
I went home and i got disappointed because i caught him checking my email.
I have nothing to hide but i just feel sad. I have my own privacy and i think it is rude to read other email without acknowledgement. Any how, it is alright since i have nothing to hide.
Today is just tiring.

I was so hungry and i went to Texas Road House. I went there alone, luckily he joined.
I was so happy.. that was the first date i have that i remember.
we are so busy that we dun have time for each other. (THOSE OF YOU THAT DO NOT AGREE, shut the fuck off). I get full, but we have so many leftover.

He brought back for his bro. He really thinks of his family. I liked it :)
Anyway, he drop by again at night and we had a talk about future..
CONCLUSION: my future is a huge question mark... hahhaah,... i dunno if this whole relationship will work out or not but I am living my life to the fullest now.
I have no regret and I might find a better one someday. WHO KNOWS.. kim sung soo is my future hubby.. hahahaha
or i might get married to a handsome white that looks like brad pitt... WOHOO...
WE NEVER KNOW ...

:)

I completely forgot the existence of my blog. hahaha that's prolly why i never update it again. I have been busy lately. my schedule is always packed. I dun really have much time on my own nowadays.
it's all good though. i started to love my life, my job, my school. I love my school right before i graduate. hahahah.. kinda too late.

My flashback....

first year here in college station - hated it.... i always cried and wanted to quit. that's because i had one of the hardest time in my life. betrayal, disappointment, hard time in school, self identity crisis.
second year -------------------- so so.. i made more friends and copy buddies. I made a lot of true friends though... they are still here besides me helping me everytime i needed them. Thanks to Albert for being there for me and make things better that what it used to be.
third year ---------------------- i am working hard to make my dream real.

i dunno what lies ahead but i will try my best..
oh ya.. by the way. i only have my free time on saturday.
I usually spend it with Monica or Nikita or the College Main squad. Mainly Monica since she is really demanding..

I had 3 not so clear interviews already. Even though i am pretty sure, those are not the one. It kinda open my eyes of how the whole career things works. You can find a job easily but it is your decision if it is the right one for you or not.

My schedule are pretty much research, hw, or work.
I am working a really cool project. I guess most of you already know what it is.
hahaha.. i dun want to write what it is since it is gonna be long
but i enjoy working on it :)

o yea, when i graduate, i think my dad and my bro are coming here BUT NOT my mom... haikss...
that means instead of someone taking care of me, i have to take care of them
hahaha darn.. things are the other way round now.
It's all good though. I can do it. I am trying to stand on my own feet now.
I try to do things on my own. A lot of ppl offers me help but i try to do it my self.
I try to work hard and life with my own money. I need to cut down expenses and see if i can support my self or not.. SO FAR NOT YET.. i am still in debt .. hahaha...
I spend more than i make. Luckily, i have great parents. They are the best parents in the world.
They supported me for 22 years already.

I am gonna pay all my bills now.. or maybe not
hahahah
lazy... It is a beautiful saturday morning now. Time to chill.

.........

Yohoo... i woke up and it is a brand new day. sorry i never update any pic because i don;t have the chance to take new pic,...

kinda lazy and dunno what to write..
anyway...

:)