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Hello all.....

Thanks for visiting my blog...

I have been through a hell lot of ups and down ever since july 31 (last time i updated this blog). NOw i am working hard on my GRE to move on with my life.

I am feeling happy now since for some reason i decided to move on strong...
here is what you missed for this past 5 months..

1. i cut my hair ... it is so fugly now
2. I got several (i dunno what happen) interview and never heard of it again
3. I miss my family, my bun, and everyone that i love till now
4. secret

This past year has been really beautiful. Full of tears and joy.
This has been the most beautiful moment in my life but i learned a hell lot of things.
I need to find my true happiness whereever god lead me.

I dunno where to start but i let my stubborness go eventually.
I love ma bun therefore i let him go.
I think we will be much better off alone for now.
At this point of our life, i think it is better if i set my priority right.
I do understand that the relationship has no future and will not go anywhere ...
but i didn't want to accept it. :) (bun, sorry for the pressure that i gave u all the time).
I was trying to be independent and busy with my own life and all of sudden.. we got far away from each other. *sigh*

Here are the things that makes me laugh with tears reminded me of you
1. After work hour... i stared at the leftover food... and throw it away
2. When u had soccer injury, ... you only had 20 dollars left on your wallet...and we went to albertson to buy ramen and chicken ( i never told you i didn;t like the chicken and fries ... it tasted old :)..) but i liked it since that is the only thing we can afford.
Ps: this sounds embarassing... but it was such a beautiful memory... miss it!!
3. you still had your soccer injury.. and it was our anniversay,,,
we went to eat that badass sushi, walked around the complex and we went drinking at genji...
i cried but the tears was beautiful... it hurts so bad seeing your turtle walking speed.
4. cleaning your apt...
5. eating ramen.... i love the potato noodle soup ramen
6. your wrinkle
7. your abercrombie parfume a year ago... never smell it anymore
8. an almost dead plant that you gave me
9. church after you got back from california... thank God you are still alive
10. my bday post card
Thanks for all the good time that we spent together.
I will be there when you need me. I will be your shoulder when you need me

Wish you all the best in your future..
I know one day with all your hardwork.. you will be one great successful man.
I hoped you will find one beautiful significant other that will love you more and more everyday... just remember to pay my money when you reach that point

Back to the real world....Halloween is coming.. need to get my new halloween costume.. i missed last halloween with ma bun... but i will not have my halloween with him again this year.
Such a lot of bad halloween memory..

Whatever it is .. it is for the best of us both..
wish you all the best...!!!


lots of love,

Alice